SHOW

I'm very behind on updating this. So I'll try to give a quick overview of the show day.

First, let me say that peak week was far crazier than I expected. I was hungry the whole time. But every day I worke up weighing less and feeling amazing. I was loving that final week of transformations.

I was 111 pounds going into peak week. Stepped on stage at 106. So I definitely benefited from peak week. BUT, there was some minuses...I was so freaking little that nothing fit me and I looked amaciated in normal clothes. Then by the time I was spray tanned, had my hair done, makeup done, I just didn't even know who I was anymore. It's like I was living in another body for the day.

Spray tanning sucks by the way. I hated this part of the show. I did not like that I was worried about going to the bathroom and sweating for like 24 hours. That just sucked. What a freaking pain in the ass. That is the only way to explain it.

I did great at prejuding as far as presenting myself. I was very happy with how I always smiled and looked at the judges. I did horrible as far as placings go. I was in 3rd callouts so I knew right off the bat that I did not place. But it is what it is. You can tell that I was compared to some not-so-hot girls in my group:

I'm not surprised that I did not place. When I look at my photos, I know that I need a stronger upper body and that I could have had a six pack, and that I should have got water off of my legs. I really did not look as ripped as I could have. Amy said I looked great (as did Steve) which meant a lot to me. All I'm saying is that I know I could have looked better and I agree with the judges putting me at the bottom. I was not upset about this at all.

I was upset about how the show was run. It was a mess. This made me emotional for the few hours afterwards because I felt like I worked my ass off to get there and was very disapointed. But after about 48 hours of everything sinking in, I was ok with what happened and knew that I would rather just pick myself up again and get to busting it in the gym all over again so that I can better myself and try to come in looking even better again in a few months. Even if the show was going to always be a crappy run show, the show is the least important part of this whole bettering my physique journey.

So, I am going to compete again. I am hoping to do the Ronnie Coleman in April up in Dallas. This way I can be with Amy. I already talked to her and she was excited for me and wants to do my makeup for that show. That will be awesome. I would love to have my coach with me the next time I'm going to step on stage.

Here are some photos that are pretty good of me from the show: