Wow...time has flown

I suddenly "woke up" this week a little bit.

I had multiple realizations:

1. I only have EIGHT cheat days left until my contest. EIGHT. That means only EIGHT more days of choosing to drink some alcohol (HUGE for me), or candy, or cake, or chips, or wings, or a hamburger....I am so close to having to say good bye to all my favorite foods!

2. Changes are taking place very quickly now. When I look in the mirror, I am seeing changes happen so rapidly that I sometimes am like "wait, has that line always been there? I didn't ever notice that before..." It's almost like my brain was put in someone else's body and I'm every day waking up trying to figure out how it changed over night. To the point where I grab a pair of jeans thinking they will be snug, put them on, realize they don't fit, and then I'm bewildered. I'm telling you that fat is coming off my body and I can't hardly keep up with it at this point. AND I'M NOT EVEN PRE-CONTEST YET.

3. I am exhausted. I guess I'm really pushing myself to the limit, because every day this week I have had a total crash by about 3 or 4:00 in the afternoon. Complete burn out. I've been up at 3:30 every day and once this week I worked out in the morning and evening. I eat 1700 calories a day but it doesn't seem to be enough...my body is working it's ass off.

4. I am actually doing this....like I will be a Figure Competitor. I have always wanted it, and it is coming full force ahead. It's the real deal.

I realized all of the above this week and have almost gotten sick a couple times because of how excited/nervous it makes me. It's like when you dream about something and never think it will happen, and then it is suddenly happening to you and you are like "holy cow, is this real?"...it's a whirlwind.