7 weeks out!!!!

Wow, I can not believe I only have SEVEN weeks left until my show!!!

I am so excited!!!!

And nervous and anxious and I'm sure I don't know much about what I'm really getting myself into...

But, I do know this: The hard work I have put in the last year and a half is really paying off and has finally lead me to this point. I am trying not to be emotional about it but it really is hard not to get somewhat emotional. I am so excited to be able to achieve this, and when I think about how I used to feel about myself and how easily I gave up on diets all those other times....wow. How completely different I am now. I can honestly not imagine going back to that way ever again. And it is a little weird because I really think that I work 10 million times harder now to have this body and healthy lifestyle, and I've given up a ton to be here. But I still wouldn't trade any of it back.

To the point where today I started thinking about how my 30th birthday will be here in a few months. And how I all along said I wanted to have a HUGE party....and now? Not so much. I mean, I will definitely celebrate my 30th! But I don't think I really want to celebrate it with a big alcohol/food fest. I mean, really? Pay all that money for a bunch of pure CRAP that I refuse to eat regularly!?? Hmm.....If I really do end up doing anything, I think I will take the few really good friends I have to dinner somewhere and my splurge will be a big piece of chocolate cake. But otherwise, I think I'd rather spend my money on a new workout outfit or purse or something I'll use rather than consume. Guess I really am showing my age after all now.

But about the next 7 weeks. They are not going to get any easier. They will be tough. I'm down to 114 pounds and 14% body fat. And I feel and look great but the punishment to get these last few pounds off is killer. TWO workouts a day, EVERY day!!!! WEIGHT training 4 days a week, plus a plyometric workout, and a total of 7.3 hours of cardio in the week. The total time I train in a week is about 13 hours. Add on to that travel time to the gym, and it is easily 16 hours a week. And then I spend about 6 hours a week getting food prep done. So, that means 22 hours a week is just for show prep. That is a lot of time.

FOOD BREAK

Do you know that my Saturday still feels like a complete CHEAT day to me, and this is what I ate last Saturday:

Egg beater omelet for breakfast with a slice of Ezekiel toast.
1/2 cup oats with 1 scoop whey and 1/2 blueberries for lunch.
2 low fat waffles with sugar free syrup and 1 tbsp almond butter for a snack.
Whey protein powder and powdered peanut butter for a snack.
Steak, potato and broccoli for dinner.
A granola bar.
Dessert: whey protein powder with 1/2 cup pumpkin, 2 tbsp cool whip, and 1/4 cup granola.

I mean, if I could eat that every day I would be ecstatic!! But no, I only eat it on Saturday and I actually feel kind of GUILTY!!!!

IMPORTANT DISCOVERY!

I have discovered some amazing sugar free items this week too that I just have to share:

Walden Farms makes a sugar free fat free caramel dip, chocolate dip, and marshmallow fluff. You can find this in the specialty section for diabetics at the grocery store. I have not yet tried them, but I bought them. I plan on using 2 of them tomorrow and seeing just how good they taste. Check it out: http://www.waldenfarms.com/products/dip_marshmallow.html, I found mine at Kroger, but you can buy online.

I always use a sugar free syrup in my coffee or egg/oat pancakes. Well, I ran out of my vanilla. I went multiple times to both grocery stores to find it and they have not restocked. this really irks me. I LOVE that vanilla syrup and I'm kind of lost without it. Well, I went online to see about it...you will never believe what I discovered. there are only like 50 different flavors of that brand of sugar free syrup. The brand is Davinci. Go online and you will see: http://www.davincigourmet.com/. I ordered peanut butter, white chocolate, cookie dough, chocolate, caramel, vanilla, and macadamia nut. I could not believe all the choices. I was having a hard time picking them out! My coffee is going to be absolutely amazing from now on!!!! I can not wait to try them all out!!!!

See, it's these little things that keep me going and excited about my food. Once you are hooked on being healthy and trying new things, you just can't quit!!!