Oh Carbs have never been so amazing....

I have had a ROUGH last few days and that is putting it mildly.

not to put anyone through a "pity party" because after all, this is what I wanted to do...BUT....In the last 3 days I have

1. Sobbed in my bathroom to the point I couldn't breathe
2. Felt dizzy like I could possibly pass out on more than one occasion
3. Practically OD'd on a pack of gum
4. Almost fell asleep at my job
5. Went through some actions without really remembering what I just did in the last 15 minutes.

So, it is suffice to say that I have lost it mentally. Or at least I had. Now I think some clarity is coming back. I went 3 days in a row low carb. That is the longest I've been on a low carb cycle. Usually it is only 1 day. 1 day is easy. THREE days totally sucks. Because I'm only eating like 1200 calories on those days. But I work out twice a day so I easily burn 600-700 calories. SO...not running on any fuel. Plus a stressful job.

Now today I'm back on my "normal" meal plan. Which is still very low carb compared to what most people eat. But sheesh....at least today I can have half an apple and green beans with my chicken for lunch! And I get to have more volume for dinner tonight as well. Thank the lord.

So I am feeling better.

I didn't have any weight change last week or body fat change. But I am not discouraged. I see changes taking place and can tell I will be ready to take the stage. I have just under 8 weeks now to perfect my body. I think it is all coming together. I just need to hang in there!

In other BIG news... I found a photographer to take my photos on Wednesday before the show. So I have a couple hour shoot with her (Robyn). She takes really un-traditional photos so I thought that would be great. I am going to take a couple photos in a bathing suit and another couple in a mini-jean skirt and crop top. I figure those will help show off all my hard work. I definitely wanted to have some professional photos taken to capture everything I've worked so hard for all this time. I mean, who knows if I'll be able to ever do it again? Especially after this crazy last few days. Ha!

I need to check in with my suit designer this week. I'm going to pay off my balance and check in to make sure I'm going to get it (hopefully by the end of the month?). I want to make sure it is going to fit after all!

Other things to do at this point is really to focus on what I need to bring to the show with me. I will be needing to pick up little things here and there over the next couple weeks. Oh, and I also need to figure out who the heck is going to be doing makeup at the show so I can book an appointment with them! Very important because I really don't know how I would be able to make my face match the skin tone of my body! It is going to be SOOOO Tan!

In food news, I discovered my new favorite dessert that I'm going to be eating as much as I can between now and the show:
pumpkin pie treat:
1/2 cup pumpkin
1 scoop vanilla protein powder
1/4 cup low fat granola (I like the Bare Naked Fit Vanilla almond)
2 packets splenda
pumpkin pie spice
cinnamon
fat free cool whip

You blend the pumpkin, spices, splenda, and whey in a blender. Then transfer to a small dish. Mix in the granolla. Then top with cool whip. I put this in the fridge to keep real cold for a couple hours then ate it right before bed. It was a delicious treat. It has about 300 calories, but all good for you and very low fat, high protein. I can eat this on Saturdays.

I have to be very careful now on Saturdays because there is no such thing as cheat/reward meals. I basically have to keep all sugar out of my diet. So when I pick foods to carb up on, it is like oatmeal with blueberries. This weekend I'm looking forward to having an omelet made with egg beaters and veggies, oatmeal with chocolate whey and almond butter, my pumpkin treat, and a baked potato and steak. I have to really watch the sugar content, so I'm trying to keep the amount below 50 grams on Saturday.

That is all for now. I'm off to eat half an apple. YAY!