A big big uh-oh moment

I had a horrible horrible moment this week.

My body fat has been dropping but it has not really been just FALLING off of me. I started pre-contest at like 17.5%. I wanted to be 16%. But it took me all this time (12 weeks) to move from 17% to 14%. what the heck???

well, I was taking a fat burner when I started pre-contest. And then Amy told me to wait to get on this T-X supplement, which is actually a pro-hormone (I know, everyone is probably shuddering right now...)...anywho....so at 12 weeks out I went on the T-X. Now, I THOUGHT it was a fat burner. I was already on a fat burner, but I thought the T-X was just a higher strength fat burner. Amy explained to me that it would not give me a stimulant effect so I would not curb my appetite with it. Well, I've been like perfect on my diet for the last 6 weeks. But for some reason my body fat has barely moved. So then Amy says something like "is the fat burner giving you any energy?" and I'm thinking, what the heck is she talking about, she TOLD me T-X wouldn't give me any energy...see where I'm going with this???? I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE TAKING BOTH SUPPLEMENTS AND I'VE ONLY BEEN TAKING ONE!!!!!!

CRAP.

SHIT.

YOU HAVE TO BE KIDDING ME.

When I told Amy we both started freaking out. She said she was going to have a heart attack. I'm like...well I've been shrinking...and she's like, yeah but it is not all fat coming off of you, it is obviously just that you are burning a ton of calories and not focusing in on the fat!!!

So, I'm trying to stay positive. Because now I have to get back on the fat burner, but it will take my body a couple weeks to get used to it. So I'm hoping and crossing my fingers that the fat burner just shocks the hell out of my system and I get a whole bunch of body fat off in the next couple of weeks.

The other kinda good thing is (I guess, I'm trying to find the silver lining to this whole thing)...is that I'm at 113 pounds now. Well I only wanted to get to 110 for show. Amy actually thought I would be like 112 for show. So I guess I'm pretty much at the weight I wanted to be at, I just now have to get this fat off of me and not worry about getting little because I'm already there. But I think this is still kinda bad because it is highly unlikely I will just lose 3 pounds of fat in the next few weeks. I will most likely lose 2 pounds of muscle also to lose those 3 pounds of fat. Hopefully that happens and I fit perfectly into my suit.

Ugh. Like I don't have enough stress dealing with this whole thing. I just have to tell myself it is yet another test of will power and that when I make it to the end I will be that much more proud of myself.

Also, check out the post prior to this for a sneak peak of Before vs After. I can not wait to have the dreadful before photo with the competition photo. And the before photo in the post is when I weighed like 137, so I wasn't even the heaviest (150lbs!).